I can't remember the last time I felt this exhausted. It brings me back to the days before my CPAP when I didn't know I had sleep apnea and needed a coffee and 2 large Monster energy drinks every day just to keep me going. Last night it wasn't knee pain that kept me up but rather insomnia. You ever have one of those nights where you felt so exhausted... too exhausted to go to sleep? I had one of those last night, it was like my mind was racing all over the place and I just couldn't fall asleep. The more you toss and turn, the more annoyed you get and the more you can't fall asleep. I remember seeing 3AM and thinking I might as well get up and go into work early...and then I fell asleep for 3 hours!
Anyway I pushed through another day and managed to stay on plan. I decided to take my strength training rest day today, but I got my gallon of water in by 2PM and stuck to what I brought for food. I need a really good night's sleep tonight, for now I'm just trying to hold my chin up. Everything annoys me right now and I'm just trying not to blow up at anyone; today I just shut my office door and worked on paperwork all day... I still didn't get out of the paperwork hole I'm in.
Better days are coming, if you don't have a few tough ones here and there then you wouldn't appreciate the good ones. Another day in the books, one more and then I weigh in. I'm kind of excited to see how I've done.
Stay Strong!
Sorry you had such a bad night. Lack of sleep is a killer, everything becomes so hard. Hopefully tonight is better.
ReplyDeleteWishing you have a better rest tonight. I know how off everything feels when you have had one of those nights. Stay strong!
ReplyDeleteHere's to a better night and better days - you are so right when you say " if you don't have a few tough ones here and there then you wouldn't appreciate the good ones."
ReplyDeleteI totally feel your pain. I am finishing graduate school and have like a million papers this month and my brain wants to turn to my usual coping mechanism for stress which is food. I am also pooped all the time (I have hypersomnia) and stress makes it worse. I can't use food as a crutch because still recovering from gastric sleeve and I can't because I don't want to… I need a new coping mechanism because stress eating has only made me larger and further from my goals in life. Sometimes it utterly sucks because journaling or going for a walk is NOT and NEVER will be the same as eating a piece of cake. But you know what? Becoming healthy again will worth it. Hope you have a better day and night. Hope this panda makes you laugh a bit… bc this is how I have felt all week!!
ReplyDeletehttps://youtu.be/aW3mJf-sFko?t=15s
'Better days are coming' and you will have a good nights sleep to help ........ sending positive thoughts your way.
ReplyDeleteAll the best Jan