Starting Over

 

I really can’t believe it!  Has it really been almost 2 years since my last post?  So much has happened to me since then that I’m not even sure where to begin.  These last 2 years have not been kind to me.  Actually that’s an understatement; I think someday I may refer to them as some of the “darkest” years of my life. 

When I decided to write this post I spent a long time trying to decide how to restart this blog.  Should I just delete the old stuff and start over?  Should I create a whole new blog that talks about more than just weight loss?  Should I just pick up where I left off?  Eventually I decided that I would keep the blog as it is (Though I may change the tile in the weeks to come).  My reasoning is simple:

Things rarely go the way you plan.  I started this blog as a way to hold myself accountable.  When I stopped, the accountability stopped as well and the results show it.  If I were to delete that old history and truly start over, this blog wouldn’t reflect the struggles I’ve faced over the last 2 years.  When I was writing 2 years ago, I was doing everything right and the results were beginning to show.  In order for me to move forward, I need to remember the past and I want everyone to see just how easy it is to go astray.  As I said, things don’t always go as planned; by now I was expecting to be at 199lbs. having completed my mission and enjoying the rewards I had laid out for myself.  Not only did I miss the boat on that, but I went backwards…by a lot!

So where am I now?  I’m still trying to quit smoking.  I turned 40 this year and my doctor put me on medication for my blood pressure.  In my last blog post (March 2010) I weighed 270.  When I weighed in on Sunday morning I was at 326.  This was not the condition I expected to be in when I hit 40!

OK so I got all that out and it’s time to move on.  As I thought about the last few years I realized that part of the process for moving forward for me was to acknowledge my past mistakes, learn from them, and then let it go.  I can’t change the last 2 years no matter how hard I think about it.  I’ve hung my head in shame long enough; it’s time to get going again.   In the coming days I’ll start posting my plan which has started today.  I’ve got some new ideas and I’m going to try a few new things so we’ll see how it goes.  If you followed my blog before, the format isn’t going to change much.  I’ll be posting regular articles about my progress and I’ll be sprinkling in some articles about specific weight loss techniques.  I welcome of all you to join me in my new adventure and wish all of you the best of luck if you are on an adventure of your own!